are we laughing because it is so genuinely hilarious.
or are we laughing out of habit.
aloneness stares blankly right afters.

honeymoon period is over.
overestimation is so much more dangerous than underestimation.
i wanna quit yet i dont want to give up just yet.
dont know what i'm working so hard for.
not like anyone would acknowledge anything just yet.

i dont enjoy the process.
i just like the outcome.
the good one that is.

i rarely read a book twice.
but escape so captivating.
i think i'm gonna read it a third time.

the half-outsiders.
invited to the house.
but kept out of the room.

it always seems so easy to lose.
but its always so hard to get it back.
reminds me of 六国论.
worked so hard to advance one small step.
yet it only takes one moment of carelessness, hesitation and madness to lose it all.